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did you ever think i would update let alone ever be online again>? me either. its been eight thats right eight long months sinceive had a computer. judging by my last update you can probabaly tell. So much has changed and so much has gone on. ready?
For those of you who havent kept up with the social chain the past 8months, me and bud broke up... i know. But honestly i think we are both better off. And i hope he knows i wish him everything good in the world cause despite everything i still think hes a wonderful person.
I am again dating. Jonathan Capuano. Hes beyond words. you know that feeling you get when you break up and you never ever think there will be anyone else then you find yourself wrong. i did that. i hope he knows i love him very much and you all should know hes good to me.
We moved! into a house finally FINALLY! I HAVE MY OWN ROOM! and its so cute. ill post pictures sometime, i painted the ugly organ around my boarder its nice. and im closer again to my wife,emily.
Now a driver, since last april. good stuff. very convienent.
Senior, still younger than most people i know but i deal. its going great. just completely enjoying myself and the people i might never see again:-(
my brother phil from vegas came to stay with me this summer. we seriously had a blast and i think bonded more than ever. i havent seen the rest of my fam since april WAH!
My "best friend" from vegas moved here, havent talked to her though, she kind of sucks now.
I honestly miss all the kids from last year at school, all know, its empty without you.
Coach Jen got married, its about time.
Julie went to college.
Saw many people i miss lately.
Drama will never cease.
Looking at colleges..ekk.
Saw Sigur Ros.<3 best thing to happen in my life.
My hair is long.
And for once i think im content im not complaining. yeah things suck here and there but when you realize what youve lost what you could lose and what youve gained, things sort of even out.
so alas i leave you with some pictures of whats went down, enjoy.
<3 jess
( update suttin )
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[25 Mar 2005|01:03pm] |
well alot has happened.
people suck.
Boyfriends can be liars.
hearts can be borken.
people will desive you.
i wish everything would just go back:(
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[27 Feb 2005|09:55am] |
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So i know its been quite some time. But nothings really been going on. The week off has been pleasent. school is nothing more than it usually is. And home, friends, family are all kosher. Some highlights of my week....
Seeing Court and Ber like everyday.
Ber reteaching me how to ice skate.
Seeing Fiege and annoying him.
Seeing Bud two days in a row cause it hasent happened forever.<3
Seeing my beautiful Julie.
Scrapbooking with Sarah Julie and Coach Jen.
Double dating with Sara and Paul.
Falling in love with Sara.
Seeing Steven after his trip.
And Jonathon being there cause i missed him too.
Bonding with Sara while are boyfriends look like theyre five and play metal slug:-\
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i love alexa so much its ridiculous. and i had an extravagant time bowling with ehr this past week. her comment stupid she should know i love her;)
heres a few me and Tain being stupid.
( meee and da babihhhh )
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[03 Feb 2005|09:38pm] |
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Okay.. and thats all the week has been.
its had its fun moments. Cheerleadin was great tonight. AND I HAVE A C IN MATH 3!!!! big deal for me.
But something happened today that was lame.
So listen...please
Okay well, in studio art(which i hate) we have to be silent the entire time and draw our hands nd stuff and listen to Non-lyrical music but she chooses classical. Which is COMPLETELY okay cause i enjoy it.
but the rest of the class didnt so much.
So i decide to bring Explosions in the Sky thinking i love them so maybe they will.
Boy was i wrong.
They were so mean to me about it. they didnt even give it a chance, just because it wasnt rap or something (not putting rap down at all) but they were just rude. and im not acting ashamed of what i listen to but i mean i dont listen to r&b everyday but if someone brought it in i would respect them enough to not say anything. They made fun of the music the bad name the song title(s). i dont know i just guess i dont realize "those kids" are actually out there, i ahte judgemental people i guess
sorry for my tangent it just sucked i was hurt
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[30 Jan 2005|03:51pm] |
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So im updating just to update.
This week off has been very nice. Very calm and chill. hung out with some good people watched some good movies. Due to my digital camera still being BROKEN by courtney, this unfortunately is a nonpicture update:( I'm still being faithful to my pictures though. I've been using my 35mm still good fun. Stevens birthday passed and we had a nice get together for that. I slept at leans with emmie:) missed them adam and al came over the next day missed them too. Saw Kerry and Amy missed them. I basically had fun seeing alot of people i miss alot.I shopped with bud for a bit it was so fun he bought me a new coat, i like it.Then he went to work and i met up with jules to continue shopping<3 i always miss her, then went to the basketball game with her and sarah. We saw kira and danielle.i was happy. Carile is leaving on tuesday im very sad but i hope she has alot of fun<3 I ruined my lj layout thinking i could fix it myself if anyone can help me get everythign backto size it would be apperciated.
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[01 Jan 2005|01:10pm] |
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So here we are on the first day of 2005. Feels the same but looking back so much has changed. Most people are writing about how this year wasnt the best, they didnt really like it yada yada. But for a change i actually enjoyed this year.
Yes, Like all i went through a ton and this is definatley had its low points its breakdowns and its tears. But it also had its new friendships, its everlasting ones, and its fun.
I learned so much this year. As they say the older the wiser and i see that more and more.
And as chessy as it sounds i learned so much about who i am this year, really! i learned to accept myself though i am not perfect. i learned how to trust and have faith in another. and i learned to be grateful for everything handed to you because it might not be there tomorrow.
I met sooooo many wonderful people this year its insane. i got close with some, distant with few, but know each one is there when i need them.
I also fell in love this past year. And i know many of you will say.."your only sixteen, you don't know what love is" but on the contrary i do. Love is many different things to many different people. But to me love is trust, love is friendship,love is looking at the person everyday and saying god i am lucky to have you in my life. Love has hardships. Love has victory. Love has laughter and tears. And for all these reason I Jessica Ann Allyn do indeed love you Martin Charles Budinski aka Bud<3
To everyone ive spoke to, cryed to, laughed with, chatted, said hi to, and loved, thank you for a wonderful year.
( flashingback the good times- )
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[10 Dec 2004|12:17pm] |
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Allllllllright.
well nothing really has been going on. i dont know whats happened since last post. these pictures are pretttttty old. but it was a LEAP day out. the strong museum! yes i know we should probally be to old for this but who cares we had a blast. After strong we were invited to the Zinks for pasta dinner hornak and eric accompanied us<3 Mrs Zink is so cute and bought them both cards...Eric for his birthday and Dave for helping fix jules car. Dave also brought me to braclets he knew i would wear that his sis wore for halloween and would never wear again, i was thrilled. It was also close to Thanksgiving at this point, just look what she bought for our after dinner desert..
Courtney remember im here.
Hey bud i love you.
( can you tell me how to get to sesame street )
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Ohgeeeeee
well some old some new.
you know i only update when i have pictures...
last a few weekends ago we had a tourney at Utica got second first time we ever brought home anything than first ...youll see how upset me and court were.
The night before Hornak and Bud wanted to hang out, so we went to the Zink residence for a good time like always.
Julie got a brilliant idea... She wanted to straighten Buds hair, seriously long flowing and beautiful layers non of us knew he had. He refused to let dave style it.
We hung out Decided what each of us looks like we'd be when were older...dave and julie picked orthidontist for me? dave fell in love with my coat tryed it on. crazy
The other day blleap greeted sarah in getting off her braces. Me court and jules began the retarded picture fest. Joined later by the rest youll see
Brace yourself.
( drunken afternoons )
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So Wow im gunna start writing just to write i feel lost when i dont. i still read everyones even if mines not being read. Things are getting beter as days proceed. I realize more and more about life and the people in it. ive missed so much i dont know where to start.
CoMpitions like crazy won all four so far(knock on wood) Last weekend Amy Jon and Carlie Cap and My boy came to won. It made my day.
Kerry Amy and Cory came over last week to visit me i made them all dinner, they made me a happy girl(even though they liked my dog better than me)
Zink resdince hangouts are starting again soon! Julie im psyched.Bud Rj Hornak Eric Sarah and Boo better all be there it wouldnt be complete if one of you were missing. Amy pink your going to be a specail guest accept it.
i adore my boyfriend.
I hate illness.
I miss the fam in vegas almost more than anyone knows.
Me and Bud babysat his cousins last weekend and i loved it.
I got a new green pea coat and i love it.
My camera broke, its going to be $169 just to send it out not even for repairs so my mom said no.
all in all things are well.
Courtney Gorke is my sweetheart.
I miss Carlie and Jon. Visiting them tomorrow!
I GOT A NEW POPPET!
-boye! jess
( randoms sorry )
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So i havent been up to much lately. We had another comp. and we got Grand Champs (1st place) for those who have no idea what im talking about. My boy couldnt be there, completely out of his hands but i was still in despair. Special Guest David Hornak. Couldnt believe he actually came to one to support me and jules. i loved having someone there. THIS WEEKEND(SATURDAY)WE HAVE ANOTHER ONE! Bud Amy Dave and kage you better all be there. If your interested tag along.
We went to a show that night, Bema renouf face/teeth. i felt as if i havent been out in years, good to see everyone. Becca (met her sis) Pj Erica Dave drum Kerry as always and the rest of the normal group. It was Absoultely Freezing. I brought my mittens i shared Pj loved them.
Tomorrow Im bringing my first camera to school i got when i was five. Its fisher price. It takes 110film its insane. It looks like a viewfinder. im psyched
( Blue Cross )
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Okay well i never update and i dont know who really reads this anyways but ill continue to post my pictures as long as i live so whatever, I always read everyones updates i feel youve all been slacking the only person who ever updates is Pj. but things have been well i hate studio art but really enjoy the project im doing right now. 6months passd for me and bud and our friend lean gave us an anniversery card and i felt married haha. Everyone else seems to be doing well. Me and jules started our double (its for cheerleading) and everything else is just peachy. I miss everyone. I miss my family in vegas, and lets really it. I love the cool wheather i love the changing seasons i love fall. i have like 4 pictures from green and gold day so ill just post them i hope to update more often.
( green and yellow? )
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[29 Sep 2004|01:48pm] |
wow, so i havent updated in forever and im sorry. Its not like this gets read but i like to post pictures for the ones i know that look that just dont have lj hah. schools been good. everthings been good. i have a wonderful boyfriend. I miss alot of people. i feel like i dont see anyone as much cause of school. anyways cheerleading has been going good and we just had our first tournament. we got first and also got grand champs (for those who dont know it means we got the highest score of anyone the whole day) so that was nice. my boy came to support me even though i dont know how comfortable he was lol eric also came for support what a good dear<3 it was at darien lake so we hung out after and such. Its sprit week at school and of course i dress up everyday cause im retarded. And alot of people did 80's and i heard some girl say "Im wearing legwarmers, who would really wear these" as i wear them like everyday with my regualr clothes felt stupid but whatever.Me and kage dressed 50's.:) I have a bunch of randoms ive never posted so i think i will. until next time. comment if you please.
( boye! )
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[13 Sep 2004|02:36pm] |
Okay. This is my first picture post of just me pictures. And i never wanted to do t but i tryed 3 new hairstyles recently and wanna know what everyone thinks?! so PLEASE comment.<3 and try to keep meanness to a minimum
( dont make fun )
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[02 Sep 2004|10:23am] |
Summer is comming to a close. I dont think i really mind either. summer was interesting. highs and lows. all and all good time. Met many new people, got closer to people who were always there, and had alot of fun.
These are like random photos from vegas that i never put up. so here they are.
i miss everyone alot i hope once school starts ill see everyone more and take alot of pictures....guys i have to start scrapbook number four!
i wont update everything everything ive been up to, honestly i cant remember back that far. But last night saw the Capulanos and that crew, adam and my well stalked amy pink came too<3 it was nice. i suck at bowling.i miss bumper bowling.
( look if you have time<3 )
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So let me catch up real quick
This week-Tuesday,We went to jules the norm an amazingly good time. Mac daddy Zink(uh julies dad) gave bud his old pair of cowboy boots. That may be enough said. Bud met hannah. Hannah and Sarah did their cheer. i could probally see it a 1000 times and never get sick of it. played dance dance again had a tournament...Bud Won. no comment. Wednesday, i really dont remember at all what i did. Thursday. Had cheerleading got my uniform. they are iffy. Friday Jon Cap came to get us. We went over to stevens and watched a movie i fell asleep. ahah. that pretty much covers it
Last Night. Was Jules suprise party. She claims she knew about it. jjjeeeez! anyways it was SUCH a good time. i love the zinks house. boys played volleyball the girls sat in the house haha. Then we played dance dance as usual. Bud beat everyone who came across..Then Rj stepped up. and owned him hahaha. Then we traveled on to laser quest. i havent played since 7th grade. i pretty much lost but it was still soooooo fun. We used Dora the Explorer names haha. Back to the Zinks after quest had cake hung around. Dave and bud used eric as a junglegym? pictures speak for themseleves.
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[10 Aug 2004|12:34pm] |
So yesterday i had a really nice day. Went to Buds had a good morninghung out. Then in the evening we attended a show. At ellison park. I like park shows. i like when my girlfriend (kerry) is there. We saw swings spazed out began to run to them. Ummm happened to run through a marsh? ooo haha. instead of being smart and getting out of it we continued to run through screaming at the top of our lungs. We indulged into one of our wonderful talks. and then went back. Becca was added to my picture collection yesterday. Saw alot of wonderful people. Saw janette for a good ahh 2seconds but it was nice. Everyone was just there and happy. i love my boyfriend. hes good to me. He saves me his soggy fries<3 heres a few pictures i didnt take many. but eh. we have a playdate with anthony and becca this week<3 i also invested in this braclet where you can put your own pictures in it. Im in love it shall be started soon! boyyyyeeeeeeee!
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[08 Aug 2004|11:58am] |
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So i had a pretty good week:) hmm what went down? was pretty much at buds. One day Jules and Britt stopped by to see us. it was nice julie later asked us over. So later in the evening Jules Rj Dave and Eric picked us up. we went hung out sarah owned everyone in the dancing game. And we played hide and seek and me and julie quit. lol me and buds 4months passed..<3 Last night hung out with Rox and Rob. ice cream, krispy kreme, media play, roxs home. good night. bud also is so good to me got me roses cause ive been so sad lately. he makes my dayssssssssss!
Ive also come to realize how much i hate girls this week. Honestly so few decent ones left coughkerryandroxannecough theres more but honestly it be a longer list to write the ones who suck than the ones who are actually good people. Ugh enough complaining. I miss pictures. i promise to post some this week after i see some people. In closing...Buddy Budinski you are my heart and soul, Most girls are horrible people, and i leave for vegas in 11 days!!!!!!!!!
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Thanks to Kerry and Pj my livejournal has a new look. thanks<3
Love you both dearly.
Thanks both for good talks this morning:-)
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